Happy Christmas Fuckers!
What a happy day, being Christmas and all. Of course like always, I have my family party. It isn’t that bad. I try and not say much, I have nothing to say really. I had a few really cool stories ready incase anyone asked what was up with me. No one asked me, they hardly even looked at me. I told my uncle he should come up and see my moded case. He was all for it, I was waiting for him to go up with me. He forgot, I guess. I love to be forgotten about. Not like anything I do is special or anything, I may not be the star of the party, but I don’t deserve to be forgotten about.
One of my biggest flaws is my anger. I can’t help it sometimes. I just get so angry at everything. I can’t stand to be incited. When someone insults me, I think of the worst, meanest things I could possibly say to hurt them. I bring up anything and everything to hurt them, to lower them. I hate it. I wish I could stop, it’s just so hard. Having someone you care about tell you something extremely hurtful just makes me explode. I don’t like to explode; I can’t control what I say or what I do. It just gets to the point where my anger starts to take over and I lose control of myself.
When I walk into a room, I normally stay quiet. I don’t like to talk much. I care what other people think about me. I know I’m not supposed to, but screw it. I can’t be myself around people I don’t know. I can’t be myself around anyone really. My jokes are to crude, my humor isn’t funny, my inside jokes are perplexing to anyone besides myself and the Wormsfiles regulars. I hate being not liked. I hate not being able to say what I think. My mind just makes up incredibly insulting and rude comments about everything. I don’t even really try, they just come to me. I know that I am not perfect. People could say the same about me, that I am ugly, or stupid, or just not a good person. In most cases that would be true. Not all the time. I have a hard time knowing when I’m happy, or when I’m angry. I hate this stupid shit where I never know how feel. I feel like some wanker of a 19 year old. It’s life, I guess. You can’t do much to stop it; you don’t know who you really are till you are pushed to your limits. In my case, I don’t like what I am, yet I can’t change a thing.
Monday 24th December 7:48PM matt
I have a crush!
CLICK HERE
Fill that all out to see who I really love. :)
Friday 21st December 6:12PM matt
:(
FeXd updated his super cool inter-net web page today. He got some sort of beer thing that he is all proud about. Go to FeXd.com for more details on that exciting thing, that’s glass, and shinny, and holds liquids, and stuff.
I’m kinda pissed. Go here. Chris has been my good friend for awhile now. We’ve hacked a few webpage’s in our day, and caused terror here and there. It was fun and all. Yet, after reading his article on his page, I’m really pissed off. He’s a great guy, sure he’s a bit extreme sometimes, but that’s why he’s cool. He was totally treated unfair by his Nazi public high school for shit that wasn’t even bad. I went to a catholic high school for four years and they would never have kicked me out of the school for anything like that Chris did. It’s insane, I mean honestly, a few of the things he did, I can see why people maybe upset with him. Some of the other things are blatant signs of singling him out because of dislike or whatever. I feel bad that he got kicked out and all his credits don’t count. If I were him, I would be feeling the same way, there was a time when I did feel that way towards a lot of things. I’m trying to say that Chris doesn’t deserve this. Although he has a great social life and I hate him for that, he still didn’t deserve what happened. I’m sorry Chris, good luck to you!
Thursday 20th December 1:31AM matt
Too bad, so wrong, so long.
AND
Here.
Monday 17th December 12:58PM matt
Proxy!
YES!
The IP Address is: 12.24.192.50. The host name is: mail.lusterproducts.com. Please click here to return to the thread.
C:DOCUME~1MATT>tracert 12.24.192.50
Tracing route to mail.lusterproducts.com [12.24.192.50]
over a maximum of 30 hops:
1 39 ms 8 ms 13 ms 10.116.32.1
2 11 ms 9 ms 10 ms router-32-45.nycap.rr.com [24.29.32.45]
3 13 ms 11 ms 10 ms router-33-18.nycap.rr.com [24.29.33.18]
4 13 ms 13 ms 14 ms router-33-20.nycap.rr.com [24.29.33.20]
5 13 ms 11 ms 13 ms pop1-alb-P3-0.atdn.net [64.236.4.241]
6 11 ms 14 ms 12 ms bb1-alb-P0-0.atdn.net [64.236.4.1]
7 19 ms 34 ms 12 ms bb1-nye-P7-3.atdn.net [64.236.7.174]
8 12 ms 36 ms 21 ms pop1-nye-P4-0.atdn.net [204.148.101.222]
9 30 ms 16 ms 17 ms above-aol.lga1.above.net [209.249.119.245]
10 103 ms 102 ms 94 ms sea1-lga1-oc48.sea1.above.net [216.200.127.66]
11 104 ms 121 ms 132 ms sjc2-sea1-oc48-2.sjc2.above.net [208.184.102.177
]
12 125 ms 107 ms 101 ms att-above-2.sjc2.above.net [208.184.232.154]
13 91 ms 95 ms 91 ms tbr1-p013501.sffca.ip.att.net [12.122.11.73]
14 104 ms 149 ms 111 ms tbr1-p012101.cgcil.ip.att.net [12.122.10.2]
15 94 ms 127 ms 98 ms gbr2-p10.cgcil.ip.att.net [12.122.11.38]
16 104 ms 98 ms 101 ms ar15-a3120s2.cgcil.ip.att.net [12.123.5.197]
17 172 ms 159 ms 146 ms 12.125.139.214
18 149 ms 157 ms 169 ms mail.lusterproducts.com [12.24.192.50]
Trace complete.
C:DOCUME~1MATT>
Sunday 16th December 11:13AM matt
I'm SO sorry.
To whom it may concern,
I am deeply sorry for causing any trouble. I was foolish in using the academic computer labs for something not becoming of the college and all who it represents. The message I posted on the GGZ forums was wrong, and I apologize. The only violation of the HVCC TOS agreement was the post on the GGZ forum. I will immediately refrain from any further visiting of any material, even remotely, relating this incident. Anything happening further will occur from my home inter-net connection and be totally unrelated in anyway to HVCC and its affiliates. Again, I admit it was very poor judgment on my part. This will never happen again, I assure you. I simply ask for forgiveness. I can make a promise this sort of situation will never arise again.
Thank you,
Matt Kelly
Sunday 16th December 2:31AM matt
$50?
I guess I have to go Christmas shopping soon. I hate it. What’s the point of it all? If you think about it; if I spend $50 on a gift for my teddy bear, and he spends $50 on me, then in reality, doesn’t it cancel each other out? It's as if I bought the gift for myself. Confused? Let’s try again. I spend $50, Gund (my teddy bear) spends $50, and at this point we’re both out $50. We exchange gifts, I got him a cute little sweater I know he’ll love, I have a $50 gift and he has a $50 gift, so it’s as if I bought myself a $50 gift. There, if you’re not confused, I want to marry you.
I made this tonight:
Isn't that fun? I have nothing to do anymore since I got fired. It’s cool though, I can enjoy the little things that I didn’t have time for before. Such as jerking off and watching Ophra. I have no money, and Christmas is going to cripple me. I should start to look for another job. *sigh*
Thursday 13th December 12:50AM matt
Dear Wish Moo!
(Read www.cactaur.com for further information.)
Hi!
As your flamboyantly homosexual name suggests, you must be the ‘dictator’ I’ve heard ever so much about. I’m not really sure what type of ‘gaming’ board this is. Let me first applaud you on choosing ‘EZ-Boards’. As the name implies, this board are E-Z for any moron that has absolutely no knowledge of computers or P.H.P. to use, take your self for example. I don’t visit these wonderful, banner-ridden forums, so I’ll just wing it from here.
I hear you’re a concerned mother monitoring these boards from ‘idiots’ to protect your cute little innocent daughter ‘Qheretic’, or ‘Queer Tic’, however you’d like to pronounce it. I think it’s a great thing, for an insanely over bearing mother to monitor the social and inter-net aspects of her daughters life. If Oprha has taught us anything, it would be, that over bearing parents are simply trying to cover up child molestation or sodomy accusations, and I forget which. In any case, why would you, the intelligent and, largely (and I use that term loosely, very loosely) caring person, have to pick on high school kids for kicks?
A life filled with lawyer’ing and visiting an RPG board for kids must be exciting. I’m so glad that you, as a mature woman, took the time to email the ISP’s and 'E-Z board' admin’s about supposed ‘idiot’ users plaguing your wondrous E-Z boards. All because banning a persons I.P. range, wait, I’ll talk slow for you, because you’re a ‘hotmale’ and ‘E-Z board’ user and all, I.P. range is too difficult for such a tiny mind. Maybe filling your tiny little mind with thoughts of food and Rosie O. watching has slowed down your learning capabilities. In either case, doing the mature thing was the way to go! I’m sure you impressed all your 16-year-old forum mates with that trick. If you’d like to further match wits with me, not that you and your grammar abilities would put up much of a fight, please feel free to come post on my ‘banner free’ forums. I can see your eyes glow red, like the swastika tattooed on your forehead. Don’t be alarmed, I’m only here to tell you to piss off. That’s all mate.
Good Day,
Matt
Tuesday 11th December 11:11PM matt
A/S/L ?
It's funny cause it's true!
MattMrHat: A/S/L?
SiwIsaac14: 16 / f / upstate NY
MattMrHat: 19/M/FL
MattMrHat: My name is Matt!
SiwIsaac14: i kinda figured...i'm amia
MattMrHat: Helo Amia!
MattMrHat: How are you?
SiwIsaac14: i'm good...you?
MattMrHat: I'm good!
MattMrHat: I got your name from a quality AOL chat room
SiwIsaac14: really? i don't go into chats. i haven't for about 2 years
MattMrHat: Really? That is odd. I saw you in one the other day!
SiwIsaac14: i don't think so
MattMrHat: Then I saw the link to you're inter-net webpage of sorts
MattMrHat: Do you have a bf/gf ?
SiwIsaac14: not at the moment
MattMrHat: OH! Why not?
SiwIsaac14: i dunno. no one likes me, i guess.
MattMrHat: I'm sure they do!
SiwIsaac14: yeah, maybe
MattMrHat: What do you like to do for fun?
SiwIsaac14: i write, play guitar, dance...
MattMrHat: REALLY! I DANCE TOO!
SiwIsaac14: cool
MattMrHat: Wanna cyber?
SiwIsaac14: no thanks
MattMrHat: :(
MattMrHat: Why not?
MattMrHat: We have common interests.
SiwIsaac14: i'm not into that kind of thing
MattMrHat: Why not? You don't like to get sticky?
SiwIsaac14: i don't like to pretend fuck with someone i've never met before. kinda ruins the mood
MattMrHat: Using improper grammar turns me off, but I'm still talking to you!
SiwIsaac14: Look, I gotta go. Hope you find someone else to harass!
MattMrHat: So lets call it even and cyber! What do you say?
SiwIsaac14 signed off at 10:41:31 PM.
Tuesday 11th December 10:49PM matt
Bored.
I’ll show you where I live. Remember, I’m home anytime after 3.
Isn’t it pretty? I made a few more pictures, cause I suck and I’m bored.
HERE
Monday 10th December 12:20AM matt
Tree!
I went to get my Christmas tree today. It was fun and exciting and all. The tree is green. Not the kind of green you see on a hobo, on the street, that just vomited on him self. More like the colour of that crayon I ate when I was 5 and had to go to the hospital and get my stomach pumped. Ironically, it was the same colour as the fluids in my stomach. That would be the colour of vomit, but not the same kind that’s on the hobos. That would be simply silly! In any case, the tree is green.
Wanna see why people kill themselves? CLICK HERE
Saturday 8th December 5:52PM matt
w3rd.
This kids name is Matt Kelly aswell. IRONY!
Pha Tma Tt210: oh man matt
MattMrHat: 3
Pha Tma Tt210: heh
MattMrHat: what
Pha Tma Tt210: my mom found your site in the history
MattMrHat: which
MattMrHat: ?
Pha Tma Tt210: mattkelly.com
MattMrHat: and?
Pha Tma Tt210: she though it was myn at first and came ant took me out of school
Pha Tma Tt210: she says your a pig
Pha Tma Tt210: hahahahhaa
Pha Tma Tt210: fucking small boys in the asses is all she said to me
MattMrHat: lol what? Explain?!
Pha Tma Tt210: that what i saif
Pha Tma Tt210: i didnt understand
Pha Tma Tt210: or remebr that form your page
MattMrHat: and...
MattMrHat: ?
MattMrHat: no
Pha Tma Tt210: ha
MattMrHat: She pulled you out of school?
Pha Tma Tt210: yeah
Pha Tma Tt210: she wqas pissed
Pha Tma Tt210: htought it was me
Pha Tma Tt210: as i am amtt kelly and all
Pha Tma Tt210: oh yeah
Pha Tma Tt210: kitty
Pha Tma Tt210: is da mad notes
Pha Tma Tt210: you heard thae new cd yet
Pha Tma Tt210: damn funky shit
Pha Tma Tt210: maybe she saw the history section
MattMrHat: What else did she say about it
ha Tma Tt210: some dirty shit in therei i guess
Pha Tma Tt210: yeah
Pha Tma Tt210: she thought it was myn
Pha Tma Tt210: she loves finding firt on me
Pha Tma Tt210: speaking of which
Pha Tma Tt210: i may get off v ery quickly as im sitll grounded till tomorrow for antoehr matter
Pha Tma Tt210: ;}
Pha Tma Tt210: but then
Pha Tma Tt210: ill be on worms forums helpin you all photpshopin 1337
MattMrHat: lol
Pha Tma Tt210 signed off at 6:30:48 PM.
Friday 7th December 1:46PM matt
Spell check cried rape!
Helo! Wuz up?? It been a long azz time cence I seen ya last. How u be do’en? I have 2 tell u… I been thinken bout u all tha time. U R soo cool!! I wuz walken down 2tha corna on Friday (ROFL) N I B walken kinda sideways an I walk inta a bush lol!!!... I musta been thinken bout U hehe….. I like 2 see U, U make me smilezz . U R so funy N creazy madd sexyyy lol …U wana go 2 tha mall on sunnday!? I M meeten a bunch O my freindz there, we R gonna go eat somathin and watch a movie! Justanal iz gonna B commen HEHE she B my girlly!!! So ok I will call U lata an talk 2 U then!... hUgGlEYZ! HEHE
CLCIK HERRE
Thursday 6th December 5:37PM matt
Kittie.
I’ve had a lot of free time and all. Not having a job is great. You have a lot more time to do stupid little things that you didn’t have time for before. I fixed Cactaur.com and made a few funny Photoshop pictures. I actually have had time to play more video games! Life is good.
Anything cool happen in the past few days? Well, the bassist for Kittie, Talena Atfirld, is fucking hot. If you never saw her before:
I was looking at her webpage, and she had some shitty angel fire hosting thing. I emailed the site master and said that I would host them on Elucid with a nice discount. I got a response saying that they would be very interested in joining. It’s fucking great man. I hope I get to talk to her. Maybe VIP passes if they ever come and tour around here :)
Wednesday 5th December 11:00PM matt
Pictars!
Tuesday 4th December 12:04AM matt
OC'd
I over clocked my CPU the other day, I just now got around to uploading the pictures. Look how cool I am.
I was looking into digital cameras today. I found the Canon PowerShot A20. It’s pretty cool. They said the image quality was really good, but I’ll have to expand the included 8mb Flash memory card. Not a problem. It also recommended buying rechargeable batteries. Click here for more info.
I downloaded A.D.I.D.A.S by Korn. That’s a damn good song. Please download it HERE.
Night.
Sunday 2nd December 11:18PM matt
I quit!
Dear Brent Colwell,
Effective immediately, I am resigning from my position at Prudential Securities Inc. As you and I are both well aware, I can no longer enjoy working at Prudential because of the situations that exist there. While I feel I have done all that I can to make working at Prudential stimulating and satisfying, unfortunately there have been times where you have cited my ‘supposed’ lack of commitment and interest in my job. Due to conflicts of interest, and questionable disciplinary actions taken against me, I am forced to write this letter.
I would just like to state for the record, I did enjoy working with you. Your positive attitude made working there a little more enjoyable. Conversely, a persons self worth or employment status is not and should not, be based on such silly tasks as folding and stuffing envelopes. The idea that a person would be fired for that is purely ridiculous. As for the inter-net issue, when an employee is done with all work, and no supervisors are present to instruct further tasks, it just is not right to take actions against them due to what they choose to do with that time (within reason).
I see nothing at all wrong with going on the inter-net to do acceptable things after all work for the day has been complete. During your one-month absence from work, I had little to do. Olivia even agreed with me and stated she could not even set appointments for you during that time. She leaves at 5pm exactly and I normally finished stuffing around 5:30. The rest of the time I sat on the inter-net, not all days mind you, ironically reading my own web page.
It is for this that I am resigning from Prudential. I ask that you waive my two weeks notice. It has been a pleasure working with you and I hold the experience I did gain from being at Prudential as a valuable lesson in work ethic.
Sincerely,
Matthew Kelly
Saturday 1st December 10:37AM matt
Funny story really…
I’m at work yesterday, I got in and no one was there. I went about my normal business for about 15 minutes till my boss comes in. He says ‘Hello’ to me in an odd tone of voice. A red flag kind of went off in my head, as they tend to do often. He sits down and says, ‘Matt, we need to talk.’ At that moment, any moron could tell that can’t be good. I’ve watched enough prime time TV garbage to be able to notice ‘the talk’ from a mile away.
Before I lay into this, I just want to say, I hated my job. It was nothing but a shitty way to get a pay cheque. I know that most people feel that way about their jobs, but this is different. You can probably tell I have a lot of weird bottled up anger from previous posts, and I’m like a spark waiting to go off and stab someone 47 times in the chest and wrap their body up in tinfoil and pour gasoline it and light it on fire. That in mind, add the stress of having to drive every day of my life. Do you have any clue what kind of total idiots the let drive? It’s like on the 7th try on their drivers test, they just pass them because of sympathy.
Moving forward, he starts to go on about my job. I really only do about an hour of actual work, and then I space out for a bit. I am responsible for printing 200 letters and folding and stuffing them each day. My boss, Brent, has been out for about a month due to 2 bad disks in his back or something silly like that. He only came back last Friday. He proceeded to tell me that everything I’m doing is fine, but I’m not finishing the stuffing of the 200 letters. I never claimed to be a fast ‘letter stuffer’, but I didn’t think my worth as a person or employee was dependant on that. I guess I was wrong. He explained how he was terminating me do to the fact I could not finish stuffing the ‘necessary’ 200 letters in a single day. I began to sarcastically explain how that was utter shit. Basing me as an employee on how fast I can fold and stuff a fucking piece of paper? After much explaining, Brent said he would think about ‘letting’ me keep my job and I was suppose to have a meeting with him today.
Welcome to the present day.
I get into work, relatively on time, I say hello to the stupid ass-annoying receptionist. I know she doesn’t even remember my name, but she says hello to everyone in that sheep in a blender’ish voice. I gave her my normal, ‘Hey there, I’m good, how are you?’ She normally ignores me and doesn’t reply, but that’s ok, she probably slept with the branch manager to get that job in the first place. I walked down the hallway to the office. Olivia, Brent’s personal secretary *cough*, said hello to me and oddly drove at the phone even though it wasn’t ringing as I walked in the office.
Red flag, you bet! Brent wasn’t in the office; I figures his back pain was too much for him. Seconds later, the phone rings for me, red flag number two, the phone is never for me. Seems Olivia had orders to call Brent as soon as I showed up, lame. Brent gets on the phone and says that he came in today all willing to keep me on, then there was some ‘problem’ with the database and one thing lead to another and he found out that I had been on the internet during work hours. I explained that some days, when he wasn’t there for a month, and I finished my work, I went online for the 20 minutes before I had left. I guess he didn’t understand I had nothing else to do and no one to give me more work. He went on to say how that changed his mind and I was terminated. I snickered to myself, it was weird, and I didn’t care in the least. In essence, I was being fired for not being able to stuff letters quick enough and surfing the inter-net when I had nothing else to do and all my work was finished. I replied by saying ‘So, I guess I can’t use you for a referral now?’ I was having a grand ole time. For once it didn’t matter what the hell I said. I then said goodbye to all the people I like, and sarcastically gave a ‘Ya, nice knowing you’ to the assholes that aided in my demise. As I was walking out, I just happened to spot the hot chick in my office that I liked (she’s 26 and I’m a fool). I told her I was fired for not being able to fold and stuff quick enough. It made me smile, I didn’t care, and I’m never going to see her again anyway. I was about to ask her out, just for the hell of it, but I have a girlfriend, so eh.
That brings us up to speed. I’m writing a letter of resignation. Little help anything does for me. I’m not angry or upset, just a little confused. All my worth is based on my letter stuffing speed? I don’t understand. I was the idiot that didn’t clear the inter-net history. I was five mouse clicks from hiding my ‘supposed’ evil deed. Ironically, most of the time I was reading my own web page.
Friday 30th November 10:16AM matt
I AM GIFT CRAEZY!
It's that wacky time of year again! Get out the cyanide, the colourful festive anthrax envelopes and all that bottled up anger, Christmas is here! Yes, my friends, another supar happy holiday is upon us. This year is looking especially happy and fun. While troops are over bombing and killing one another in Afghanistan, we here, back home, will be singing and partying our little hearts out. Nothing can affect our lives. All that silly death and mutilation is so far away, wouldn’t you rather take the time to think about things like cute little babies and fluffy rabid bunnies? Oh, God knows I would!
In that spirit, I’ll continue. As if the over commercialization of Christmas wasn’t enough for you, the over bearing relentless need for gift giving has grown greater. Remember great step uncle Bill, who was twice removed from your family tree and is now back again? Well, he’s still pissed you didn’t give him that subscription to Hustler last year. Can you imagine the utter grief you will inflict on the poor soul this year without a gift? The potential ramifications are staggering. Do you really want Step ‘Uncy Bill’ to die a sad lonely old man?
This is the point I am trying to make. It’s not enough to tell someone that you love him or her and that you care about him or her. You must go out and buy them some material object or you’re suddenly a bad person. I’m not a rich guy, I don’t work a lot, and I’m lazy like the rest of you. That is why I’m mildly upset over this. I can’t afford to buy little Nicky a new marvelous bass amp, or a bright new shiny water duck. Yet, if I merely say, ‘You mean a lot to me, thanks for being my friend’, I am suddenly Hitler. The fact that I didn’t spend some part of my monetary net worth on a material object for him, makes me as bad as a middle eastern dictator, hell bent on the destruction of the world…or the Uni-bomber, whichever.
Love is a feeling, not an object.
Tuesday 27th November 12:47PM matt
PICTURES!
1 2 3 4
Monday 26th November 11:51PM matt
SWC
I killed around 500 Nazi's today. It made me feel happy.
In other totally non relative news, I did nothing all day today. I played video games, did a ecology lab and worked out. It really sucks having no one to hang out with : My plans for tomorrow (today) are: Kill Nazi's, do homework, finish my case and take pictures, and... things...
Well this news post is 'going nowhere really fucking fast', so yeah!
Sunday 25th November 1:45AM matt
News from the front!
Hm, this was actually written on the 22nd, but I must have the time zones messed up. In any case, so, as I woke I was informed that my uncle had called and I needed to call him back for some urgent information. 30 minutes later, after I took a shower, shaved, ate breakfast, played Red Faction and checked all my supar favourite internet sites, I called him. What was the big news... his rounded IDE cables didn’t work. After rolling my eyes several times, I simply went along with what he was saying. I really can’t see how they could be ‘bad’. Never the less, we struck a deal, if I burnt Return to Castle Wolfenstein for him, he’d give me one of the cables. I accepted immediately, I can’t pass up free stuff [inside joke] or free money [/inside joke]. I get to his house, check out all the wires that he ripped out, some really nice stuff, and he goes on to colourfully say how they are defective. He claimed it slowed down windows. Which is utter shit, since I know for a 99.9% fact, that it’s because he upgraded 98 to XP. XP on a FAT32 system is like a strobe light to a person suffering from epilepsy. I installed the wires on my system and they worked perfectly. No slow down, no freezing, nothing. I’m going to buy two more off him and complete the system. Hopefully, I’ll paint it tomorrow and get the plexi-glass on. Life makes me happy, like Geeno! :D
Friday 23rd November 12:04AM matt
Hey Jeanie!
Hey Jeanie! I’d just first like to thank you for visiting my site! Don’t you just love it? I mean love, not in the plutonic way; I mean more in the ‘Wow! I love when my brother ass fucks me’ kind of way. I just finished fucking myself (thinking of you) long enough to finally do it. It makes me feel all warm and tingly inside that you care enough to type the 9 letters of my meager yet purely heterosexual name to read all about me! Either that or the tingly feeling is because of all the STD’s I’ve contracted from all the off duty sailors that frequent my humble abode. Where am I going with this? Fucked if I know, I need some more feeling in my right arm so I can jerk off stab myself and think of you. I really dislike you. The kind of dislike a daughter feels after her father forces her to fuck the family dog and masturbate in the tiny chair in the corner while he sings old Rod Steward Songs swaying a bottle of half empty gin. I always liked you though!
It was fun how you could always know what I was thinking and such. I really had a crush on you. Like the kind of crush Mandy Moore sings about right before she throws up her previously half eaten meal. Boy, the good old days! We’ve neither talked, nor spoken, to each other in about a year. Oh, the ironic irony I feel when I read your letters telling me you love me and you’ll always be my friend ::tear::. The deep pain I felt inside was ripping me a part. Self mutilation was the only thing that got me thru it all. Ah, the memories of slitting my wrists to the bone and thinking of you chained to a wall, naked, wanting me to throw little genie pigs at you. Memories that I will soon not forget! I really hope that we can get past all the times I paid people to put nails in your drive way and key your fathers car. That was all just plain silly! It was a long time ago, and I have matured greatly in the past week since I’ve done it last. I mean, all the death threats were purely due to my Bi-polar condition. I can’t help it; sometimes I can’t help but run into the street and pretend I’m a mime trying to get out of an imaginary box. Consequently, after the ‘incident’, the doctors gave me these really wicked, phat, fucking 1337 pink pills that make my head feel like its being massaged by a 1,000 little naked India boys. It’s pure bliss. The only thing I dislike is the sexual side effects, but hell, having balls the size of melons is cool, chicks dig it.
I never thought one human being could write that many run on sentences. I guess I must be special. Jeanie, I miss you! I need you to call me so I can hear your voice. It pleasantly reminds me of a sheep that misfortunately got stuck in a high speed blender. Please talk to m!. I’m not into BDSM, so the torture rack and chains are in the basement, for later fun. Sorry to disappoint you love! I like you; I like girls with meat on them. Did you know cellulite (in a recent study) was deemed the number 2 most attractive feature to dogs men? It took a back seat to raping miniature horses and goat sex. Please be my friend.*
*Honestly, do not fucking visit my page. Go ‘grow’ some talent make a site, so I may mock it as well, YOU FUCKING FUCK!
ME > YOU
Thursday 22nd November 10:12AM matt
FUZZY!
Wednesday 21st November 9:53AM matt
I'm $37.95 away from happiness!
I don't rmemeber how, but I somehow got onto the NYS DMV site. I saw that you
could order custom plates on-line and such. It's hard to think about what I want
to get, but here are some I thought about:
I was really thinking about 'H2X0R' or 'PH33R'. Of course '1337' was taken,
that just ruined my day. Ya, so that's about it. I really have nothing else to
say...ok, FUCK YOU!
Tuesday 20th November 9:52AM matt
Help me.
I am 70% ADDICTED TO THE INTERNET.
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!
Take the INTERNET-ADDICT Test at Fuali.com!
Monday 19th November 7:13AM matt
God is an American.
I cleaned my room today; you can view all the sex from these here links:
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Moving forward, I went to the computer show at HVCC. It was supar fun and happy! I ended up buying a Jam Studio drawing tablet. It was only $35 and I’ve seen them retail for $70. I had the urge to also buy 50 clear CD cases for $7. The voices made me do it I swear! That’s about it, my life sucks, check out my hot sexy desktop. BONAR!
Sunday 18th November 10:40PM matt
Minors revolt!
Not a lot happening recently. I’ve been staying home a lot, maybe cause of lack of friends, but whatever. You can’t do it all, right? I’ve been playing Red Faction a lot lately. My brother and I play all the time, it’s great. I don’t know what it is, either I’m just playing really shitty players or I’m really good. I think all those countless hours playing Counter-Strike paid off. Of course I’m only really good with a ping lower than 50, but still. I really like the weapons; they mix and match between Half-Life and Counter-Strike. What game would be complete with out a rail gun? :D
In playing so much, I decided to run a dedicated server off my mom’s computer that I just built for her. As you probably already know, I tried everything and couldn’t get the NIC to work. I tired everything. In the end it seemed that for some fucked up reason the system didn’t like the NETGEAR NIC it had in there. I switched the card with Nick’s generic card and it worked; yet now Nick’s Internet doesn’t work. I haven’t really looked at it at all as of yet. I’m hoping the NIC isn’t bad. Not like I’d be paying to replace it anyway so.
My dad ditched me last night and blew off painting my case. Of course I am pretty much used to that, seeing as it took him 2 weeks to finally ‘have the time’ to cut a few holes in my case. I was promised tonight that we could paint it. This means I have to take my PC apart, again, and paint it and wait a day for it to dry. Which I’m glad about, cause I hate all the useless motherfuckers I talk to online anyway. There are a select few I like but, eh. Pictures tomorrow! :o
Lastly, I had an Ecology test today. I studied like 20 minutes for it. Before the test I needed some information from a lab I missed like a month ago. I've asked Brianna before for the information and she said that she would have it for me today. I asked her about it and she goes, 'Well I can't give you the information, cause you weren't here and it wouldn't be fair if I did'. Do you understand the rage I felt at that moment, I thought about calling her an ugly cunt. The words were about to leave my mouth. I don't get what her fucking problem is, who the fuck cares if she gives me the info. I would have given her the info and not given it a second thought. She was on some self-rightous bullshit soap box, talking down to me because I needed help. Fuck that bitch man, I'm telling her off next month on the last day of class, so I don't have to deal with her fat fucking bullshit anymore. What did I do? I simply turned around and asked this girl Jenn (who is really hot) for the info, and she said,' Sure, I'll photocopy it for you!'. At least I know that some people have matured past the age of 12 and don't think they're better than me.
DIE BRIANNA! YOU FUCKING TWAT!
Friday 16th November 10:23AM matt
PC CASE MOD: Part 2
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Wednesday 14th November 10:58AM matt
Happiness?
I confess
Everyone is overweight
And I'm obsessed
Talking is just masturbating
Without the mess
Addiction leaves you sad today & unimpressed
I can't remember all the names because
Everyone you meet today
Is just so fucking vain
Bored again by happiness
All those friends I've lost in there
I'm upset
Happiness is not a fish
That you can catch
Imagination can't resist
This laziness
That pins you down, get on your knees
Everyone you meet today
Is feeling useless & ashamed
Wednesday 14th November 12:59AM matt
Good night! Love you! Bye! Night! See you tomorrow! Love you!
Hello. I’m at work, the fucking printer refuses to work anymore and I’m really getting pissed off. I looked in my ‘Matt’ bin today, and I had no work that needed to be done. So, I’m just printing letters and surfing the Internet. Last night I put in the remaining fans into my case and cut out the plexi-glass out into a little cute shape (cough). All that needs to be done now is the painting, which I’m hoping to do tonight, if it doesn’t get too cold outside. I’ll take pictures and post them later on.
Have you ever noticed that when you’re dating someone, the longer you know them, the longer the good bye is? It takes me about 2 minutes JUST to say goodbye. It’s not enough just to say goodbye and sign off, no. If I did that, I would be insulting and short, it would be a sign of not caring. I just cut and paste ‘I love you!’ and just paste it about 10 times. That usually does the trick. Sometimes I go all out and say, ‘Love you! Night! Good night! Love you! See you tomorrow! Love you! Bye! Night!’ That usually works as it throws me far over the AIM rate limit. It’s all in good fun right? Then again, girls are icky (especialy little fuzzy ones :P).
Monday 12th November 4:46PM matt
WHAT THE FUCK
Curr Dog2k: everything is black
Curr Dog2k: black monitor
Curr Dog2k: nic card
Curr Dog2k: gfx card
Curr Dog2k: sys board
MattMrHat: only thing good about p4's are RDRAM
Curr Dog2k: everything
MattMrHat: Ok you angsty teenager
Curr Dog2k: negative
MattMrHat: positive
Curr Dog2k: negative
MattMrHat: positive
Curr Dog2k: burned
Curr Dog2k: i win
MattMrHat: HEALED I WIN
Curr Dog2k: everything is all yellow
MattMrHat: everything is gray
Curr Dog2k: why
MattMrHat: why not
Curr Dog2k: are you a gnome?
Curr Dog2k: or whoever
Curr Dog2k: the fuck those ppl are
MattMrHat: are you a faerie?
Curr Dog2k: im black?
MattMrHat: im white?
Curr Dog2k: butt cheeks?
MattMrHat: Lips?
Curr Dog2k: pussy
MattMrHat: shaven?
Curr Dog2k: omg
MattMrHat: GMO
Curr Dog2k: i saw 4 birls kissing
Curr Dog2k: girls
MattMrHat: i saw 4 dykes kissing
MattMrHat: boys
Curr Dog2k: but check it out
Curr Dog2k: they were goths
Curr Dog2k: aren't you a goth?
MattMrHat: goths are cool
MattMrHat: no
Curr Dog2k: omg no
Curr Dog2k: im a racist
MattMrHat: not full FAT bitches goth
Curr Dog2k: i hate black people
MattMrHat: I HATE JEWS
Curr Dog2k: hell yeah
MattMrHat: YOU = JEW
Curr Dog2k: cheap bastards
Curr Dog2k: fuck no
MattMrHat: MONKEY
MattMrHat: fuck yea
Curr Dog2k: im roman
Curr Dog2k: no
Curr Dog2k: means
Curr Dog2k: no
MattMrHat: Don't forget to flush
MattMrHat: Yes, I have a huge cock too
Curr Dog2k: they way you like it
Curr Dog2k: i like techno rock
MattMrHat: I like Metal Rock
Curr Dog2k: techno/rock/rap is the best
MattMrHat: In the ass? No, Never. Please?
Curr Dog2k: sometimes
MattMrHat: Ours?
Curr Dog2k: i can only remember the days when i was young
MattMrHat: Hot
MattMrHat: Keep that thing away from me you queer
Curr Dog2k: freezwe~~
Curr Dog2k: shit
MattMrHat: gg nigga
Curr Dog2k: explorer.exe not responding
MattMrHat: HAHAHA 98 RAWKS!!@!#%#@6
Curr Dog2k: jfkdlsjkfldsa
Curr Dog2k: i farted
Friday 9th November 2:59PM matt
Random nothing.
Nothing to say, this week has went by quickly. I discovered a supar cool new web site, HERE. I bought 3 Blue, 5 mm LED lights for the PC power and HDD activity lights. The modding should be completed this weekend. I won’t be on much, due to the fact I can’t cut a hole in the case frame with the system still intact. As evident as that may sound, I needed to say it :o I tried to see if I could put the blue diodes in the keyboard as well. Let’s just say that that ended in me frying the circuits…oh well.
Friday 9th November 10:30AM matt
Dance with me.
Well, I was in C class tonight, and I was reading peoples profiles. Melonie, (spelled like that because she's a fat, stupid fuck) this girl I used to hang out with 2 years ago, her profile said, 'Please go to the Dance with me saturday night!'. So here:
MattMrHat1337: can i go to the dance with you
LittleSinnott: uh you
MattMrHat1337: yes me
LittleSinnott: 're older than 12th grade
MattMrHat1337: no im not
MattMrHat1337: who would know anyway
MattMrHat1337: so, you wanna go?
LittleSinnott: what?
LittleSinnott: matt...you're a sophomre in college
MattMrHat1337: you wanna go to the dance with me
MattMrHat1337: so?
LittleSinnott: y?
MattMrHat1337: I'm a kid at heart
MattMrHat1337: It's funny
LittleSinnott: lol
MattMrHat1337: well?
LittleSinnott: . . .
MattMrHat1337: what
LittleSinnott signed off at 6:43:44 PM.
Wednesday 7th November 10:15AM matt
Daddy :(
So, I’m in ecology class today right? Briana is sitting next to me, and Jon in back of me. Jon and Bri were flirting like little 6th graders, touching each other and trying to pull papers away from each other and whatever. I had to fight back the negative cruel comment I was congering up in my sick little head. In any case, Jon says something to Bri like, ‘You should dye your hair green or something, what do you think Matt?’ Of course being the total maniacal asshole that I am, I reply, ‘Well, anything would be a much appreciated improvement.’ I thought it was a semi-witty comment, not my best but, eh. Bri looking at me and says,’ I know, I’m not pretty. I’ve been told my whole life that I’m not pretty. My mentally and physically abusive father, (pause) use to remind me every day how ugly I was. He told me I was a mistake and shouldn’t have been born.’ After I picked up my jaw and relaxed the look of confusion on my face, I just kind of sat there at looked at her. It wasn’t awkward for me; I just couldn’t believe she just said that. I couldn’t help but to just snicker a bit under my breath, I thought it was quite amusing. Don’t get me wrong, a parent should never say that to a child, but Bri is a fucking bitch. I just thought it was funny how she came right out and was all proud of it. Sick fuck.
Tuesday 6th November 4:44PM matt
Case Mod: Step 1
Step 1 is complete. That is the current status of my case. The next step will be to drill 2 more 5 inch holes for the 120mm fans that should be coming today. I am also thinking about what etched design I want in the glass. I was thinking something like this. The mirror black paint will be the final step. I'm still looking for some tubing to put the PSU wires in, and possibly the ribbons. I may buy some of the cool looking tube ribbons at the up coming computer show.
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Tuesday 6th November 1:26PM matt
Penis size ++
‘The agreement also prohibits retaliation against firms that take advantage of the freedoms, bans exclusive contracts, and requires Microsoft to disclose technical information so that other companies may design competing products.’
I was reading about how some states are going to still sue Microsoft. How funny is that? They want Microsoft to give away information and technology to their competitors so they can ‘catch up’. I really laughed at that one. Maybe we should give away plans on how to make weapons and bombs to other countries so they can ‘catch up’ as well then? Lame mother fuckers :
Moving forward, I cut the holes in the side and top of my pc case (sex). It looks hot, I’m just waiting on the fans to come tomorrow, then drill a few more holes and paint it and BOOM penis size ++. I will be sure to post pictures soon.
Monday 5th November 1:13PM matt
Bomb
Well, yesterday I got my order from pcmods.com in the mail. The Blue cold cathode light kit and 4 120mm fan grills. The light is simply amazing. It throws off no heat what so ever, which is superb. The blue totally illuminates my room. Today, I need to wet sand the case and start to pick a layout for the viewing window. I have like a 4 foot square of plexi-glassto work with. The 3 120mm fans come around the 6th. I can’t wait; my penis size is going to increase exponentially.
In other totally non related news, I totally cleaned my room and my closet. 19 years of trash gone. Of course, I kept the childhood shit and such. Now I have more room and stuff. Once I get my 2 24 Inch black lights from Tom, my penis wont fit in my pants anymore. :D If it wasn’t big enough even after that, I found the original; Sega Master System box to Out Run! ::explode::
Saturday 3rd November 10:24AM matt
Wanted to buy you shiny red things
Thought I'd be with you until the end
How did I know that I would be there
Blow me away
See if I care
Death of a future
Goodbye to my friends
Wish I could see you all again
Family hollow
Family real
Wish you were here see how I feel
And you say you want to change our minds
I've paid for your belief with mine
Of all the bravest stands in time
You stoop so low you'll never rise
Thursday 1st November 12:26AM matt
I won!
After many weeks of waiting, I finally did it! I got Brianna back! I’ll fill you in on the rest of my fun filled day first though. Well, after jerking off twice and listening to Abandoned Pools, I got all made up and pretty for school. I had an Ecology lab at 2pm. The lab wasn’t in the normal area; we were to meet at the Poestankil (sp?) stream. It was about 20 minutes from my college. Fucking boring as shit class, all we did was move rocks in the stream to see what sort of little bugs we could find. The purpose, I still have no fucking idea. In any case, I was the official measurer person. I measured distance and depth (OMEG HARD) and steam velocity. Ya, it sucked.
So anyway, as I was standing on some rocks near Brianna, I hear her blow her nose. I go (in my best Sienfeld voice), ‘ EW THAT IS DISGUSTING!’. I proceeded to giggle as she replied, ‘Well, excuse me, I have to blow my nose.’ Then I go, ‘Ya, so did I the other day when you said that shit to me.’ She gave me the look of death and shot me a ‘Yeah, whatever.’ Do you see, my life has progressed that far, in that, trivial matters such as that amuse me and make me happy. Someone really needs to kill me. Now.
On a lighter note, I ordered the stuff I need to mod my case. I ordered 3 120mm fans (90CFM) and 3 cool fan grills and 1 (blue) cold cathode lighting kit. It all cost me a little under $100. I still need to buy a better HSF, but I’m gonna wait a bit to see what temperatures I get when I finally have my case all done. Either way, it’s gonna rock.
Tuesday 30th October 4:50PM matt
I hate C.
#include stdio.h>
#include stdlib.h>
#include string.h>
/* structure to hold student info*/
struct data {
char *name;
long ssn;
char *dob;
char *curriculum;
int gradyear;
};
void main() {
/* declare variable*/
data student1;
/* define member variables of "data" variable*/
student1.name = "Matt";
student1.ssn = 133713371;
student1.dob = "Jan-08-1985";
student1.curriculum = "CIS";
student1.gradyear = 2890;
/* declare pointer to a "data" object and allocate memory*/
data *student2 = new data;
// define member variables of "data" pointer
student2->name = student1.name;
student2->ssn = student1.ssn;
student2->dob = student1.dob;
student2->curriculum = student1.curriculum;
student2->gradyear = student1.gradyear;
// print data from pointer object
printf("%s n",student2->name);
printf("%d n",student2->ssn);
printf("%s n" ,student2->dob);
printf("%d n" ,student2->curriculum);
printf("%d n",student2->gradyear);
}
What a waste of fucking time!
Tuesday 30th October 10:59AM matt
Hm.
I'm at work, I have nothing to do. I did all my boring normal shit and I have an hour and a half left to do nothing. My boss isn't in the office today, so I can pretty much do anything I want, except go home :/
Interesting story though, on the way to work, I figured I'd stop at Subway in the hannaford shopping plaza for lunch. As I'm driving through I get stuck behind this old fucking man and his old fat wife. Granted, I have nothing against old people...just old people that drive slow. I was following him and he starts to slow down. He's literally going 3 miles per hour in this parking lot. This continues for about 60 seconds. After many, many, many fun happy words said, most of which contain 4 letters...ok, they all contained four letters, I beeped my horn. The car suddenly stops dead. I kinda just looked at it for awhile. Nothing happened. All of a sudden the door opens and I see this deranged looking old lady literally pull herself out of the car she was so fat. She had no upper lip and the biggest fucking teeth I had ever seen. I couldn't help but look at her; it reinforced how much I hate everyone that breathes. THEN (oh yes, there is more), she just stands there as the car pulls away. I was going to let her walk in front of my car, but since the fat fuck couldn't even seem to stand up straight or keep her fat in her shirt, I drove past her. While I was passing her, she start flailing her pork arms around and saying something that didn't quite sound like English, but I'm sure it was, prolly she was speaking fat people talk. You know, the language that only fat people and jews idiots understand. I proceeded to flip out. I gave her the finger and started screaming, 'Get your fucking fat ass out of the fucking road, you fucking fuck. I found that it really doesn't matter what you say to insult someone, as long as you say fuck a bunch of times consecutively. Then she started wobbling toward my car. I was tempted to put the car in reverse and do humanity a HUGE favor. A las, I just drove away as fast as I could. Thus, Dooming humanity to bear the burden of supporting another fat old fuck on social security. I SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN A MEDAL!
Monday 29th October 5:00PM matt
Mod me.
Here are my supar pictures of my PC case and stuff. These are the 'before'
pictures.
123456
Sunday 28th October 10:21PM matt
WTEF?
After many a IRQ conflict, I got my parents computer up and running. Sextabulous. It seems to be fine; I still haven’t raped XP and benchmarked it yet. What do I care, my mom only likes me when I do well in school or do something for her. Otherwise she doesn’t care or notice me. Which is a good thing, I guess. I never really wanted that much attention from her anyway. Wow… too much of a weird off topic tangent there. Sorry.
My computer is doing seemingly better. I moved the full tower on top of my desk. Due to the fact there is NO air flow under my desk and my T-Bird would undoubtedly overheat. It was running about 116F idle under my desk and about 125F with a full load. After I put it on my desk, it idles at 106F and full loads at 118F. HOORJ! My entire world is now complete. I’m going to cut up my case and install a plexi-glass viewing window. I am also picking up a few 120mm fans. 39.5 CFM of power cooling orgasmic delight…or something.
I guess obsessing over my pc and its core temperature is a much needed escape from real life, especially those icky girls. Aren’t they scary?
Remember that girl Brianna I spoke about like 2 news articles back? She’s a fucking twat. In the middle of class, I blew my nose, and she was sitting on the isle to my left like 2 desks back. I hear her laugh and go to the girl behind her, ‘OH, That’s nice!’ AND SHE STARTED GIGGLING! I was angry. When class was over I almost called her a cunt (/me adds ‘cunt’ to user dictionary) to her face. Alas, I refrained and just walked out. Like she can talk, she isn’t that cute, she has NO tits, she doesn’t stand up straight and she’s a back stabbing flake of a person. Next time she blows her nose, I’m going to call her an ugly, flat chested, ugly fuck. Oh, I don’t hold grudges.
Saturday 27th October 12:37AM matt
I am not a slut!
Wednesday 24th October 12:40PM matt
Stuff
Today was a boring day, yanno, school, study, school, study, anal sex, school, study. There's this girl in my Ecology class named Brianna or something. See, the first time I met her and talked to her, I thought she was cool and had one of those 5 minute obsession things. I never really went out of my way to talk to her or anything. Every time I see her she seems to be talking to total stranger about her personal life and how her 23 year old ‘boyfriend’, Josh, is going into the army and she’ll miss him and he wrestles with her (har). Fun stories like, ‘One time Josh was mad at me, so he locked me in the back of his car and was going 120 MPH on a 30 MPH road and I was scared.’ Or the ever so popular, ‘Oh my god, like Josh got me so hammered last night, I like have such a hang over today, I don’t remember what happened last night’. That’s where I inserted my ever so witty comment, ‘Ya, you don’t even remember when Josh fisted you and stuck a dildo up your ass’. Of course no one found that to be funny and just looked blankly at me. I guess no one understands me! OH NO POOR ME!
I took my C programming mid-term today. It was ok; I studied about 2 hours for it. I still suck at it; structures are way above my head. I really have nothing else to say. Lastly, I bought the Final Fantasy DVD today. YSE/
Tuesday 23rd October 10:52PM matt
Crawling in the dark.
The rest of my parents PC parts came today. I spent the 3 hours of free time I had before work building it quickly. I had to go and buy a heat sink and fan. My mother and I went to Best Buy to pick up a Hard Drive and power supply. Much to my dismay, when I got home I found that the case was fucked. I hate brand name computer manufactures cases. They are complete fucking shit, anything to save 4 cents on a dollar. I have to find the time to go buy a case now. I told my parents it would all cost $400. It has so far hit about $800. I didn’t factor in shipping and the need for a power supply or new case. No one to blame really, it’s just one of those things where things pop-up unexpectedly.
Speaking of which, lately I feel like I’m not even really living. I’m so out of it, today, I ran a red light and didn’t even realize it till I was about 100 feet past it. It sort of scared me, to think I could have been killed. It’s sort of like I’m not alive. I’m never happy, I’m never sad, I’m just…ok. I never have a good day, nor a bad day, just an…ok day. Maybe, because my personal life sucks, yes that’s it. I hate when people say to me ‘I wish I had your life’. Like they even know, they only know what I choose to tell them. That’s why I keep my mouth shut. That’s why I closed the picture section of this page. Being totally open and free with your thoughts, ideas, or opinions, just makes you more vulnerable. All that might be true, but I may just be A PARANOID FUCK. D:
Monday 22nd October 11:51PM matt
How do I feel? What do I say? Fuck you, it all goes away!
System of a Down was a great band to see live. I was highly impressed at the show they put on. I like bands that don’t have to put some huge light show on just to get applause. When SOAD took the stage, I rushed upfront. None of my ‘posse’ seemed to want to go. I ended up about 10 feet away from the stage. I was going nuts, it was great. I almost lost my shoe a few times, but I tied them IN the pit, mad 1337 hax skillz yo. I ate a 12 inch sub and some candy bars before the show. That was incredibly stupid. About 4 songs into SOAD’s set, I got heart burn hardcore style…yo. I felt like I was going to throw up. Then, to my surprise, they played CHOP SUEY! Man, I went nuts. For some reason that song has some sort of effect on me. I either tear up or feel like breaking something. So, I gave it my all then left the pit and retired to the side where I was safe and didn’t have to put forth the energy just to stay upright.
All in all a good day. Today, on the other hand, was hellish. I'll sum it up in a few vague sentences.
Don’t eat at Denney’s.
Never leave the house.
Never make any friends.
Don’t keep clothes in your car.
Don’t tell your parents anything personal.
Stop living all together.
Sunday 21st October 8:13PM matt
You like dat shit yo?
I changed the TWO gif logo banners things, I'm raping the left bar, since it is none of your fucking business looking at me personal pictures. I just take pride in beating the shit out of those online journals. I'll show them, I'll install my OWN PHP news script! The history page is fucked. I don't know the problem; I need ruggy to look at it later sometime.
In the mean time, I am going to SYSTEM OF A DOWN tonight. FAP! It promises to be a great show. Before then, I hope to go look for a BRAND SPANKIN' NEW CAR STEREO! I've never actually HAD my very own car stereo.
|+Side note: this guy rear ended my car like 2 weeks ago and I'm getting $954 dollars in insurance money.+|
So now, I have a small fortune and nothing to spend it on. I'm going to keep it for a while and think about it. I don't want to blow it on some lame new gaming system or something like that. So...ya.
C'mon abuse me more, I like it :D
Saturday 20th October 11:26AM matt
Deconstruction.
I'm fixing the site, so if images don't work, they don't work. I'm taking off a lot of pictures and shit. No one needs to know anything about me. This page is for use of an online jounal and to prove JUST how funny I really am. D:
I AMN'T SUX!`
Friday 19th October 2:40PM matt
Let me alone :(
Well, I don't know where to start. I'll give you the short version. I knew this girl like a year ago called Jen. She instantly fell in love with me, although I never met her, and I hater her. She stalked me mercilessly and wouldn’t go away. I called her names and hung up on her and everything. Yet, she kept coming after me. I haven’t spoken to her in months, then today the dumb bitch starts oddly talking to me. Here:
lpchik2001: hey matt if ur there please talk to me
Auto response from MattMrHat: Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong, and that punishment would come to those who dare to cross the line. But it must not be true for jerk-offs like you. Consequences dictate our course of action and it doesn't matter what's right. It's only wrong if you get caught. If consequences dictate my course of action I should play GOD and shoot you myself. I'm very tired of waiting. I should kick you,beat you, fuck you, and then shoot you in your fucking head.
lpchik2001: that if fuckin wrong you have a sick mind and i think u should go to fuckin hell. i think for what u just said u should rott in hell. u dumb fuck
[INSERT] The dumb fuck obviously doesn’t know what an away message is [/INSERT]
MattMrHat: who are you
MattMrHat: lpchik2001: that if fuckin wrong
MattMrHat: hahahaha
MattMrHat: HELLO!
lpchik2001: u know what i ment
MattMrHat: Sure.
MattMrHat: So, who are you?
lpchik2001: s.o.s
MattMrHat: lol what?!
lpchik2001: some one special
MattMrHat: uh
MattMrHat: are you ok?
lpchik2001: nm
MattMrHat: Are you some 11 year old or something?
lpchik2001: what ever im fine
lpchik2001: no i am 18
lpchik2001: thank you
MattMrHat: You sure?
lpchik2001: i am a senoir at bishop maginn
MattMrHat: What did I say? LOL
lpchik2001: and yes u do kno me cuz how else would i have ur sn
MattMrHat: I'm sorry you have no balls and like to play internet games
MattMrHat: I have no idea who you are
MattMrHat: Can you just tell me so we can get past this
lpchik2001: nope
MattMrHat: Then I'll just blick you
MattMrHat: and be done with you
lpchik2001: blick?? hahaha
MattMrHat: I couldn't care less
MattMrHat: block?
lpchik2001: so how r u and bonnie??
MattMrHat: yawn
MattMrHat: ok, i'm blocking you now
lpchik2001: what i asked how u and bonnie
MattMrHat: i dont have time to deal with immature pricks like you
lpchik2001: are
lpchik2001: u dont remember me at all
MattMrHat: Not that screen name
lpchik2001: i used to talk to you
lpchik2001: i had gotten a new one
MattMrHat: omg wow, I used to talk to tons of people
lpchik2001: no i uswed to go to albany high then i switched over here
MattMrHat: uh uh?
lpchik2001: and i had webtv and i met you thro lauren bussey
MattMrHat: oh god.
MattMrHat: Now I'm really blocking you
MattMrHat: stop fucking obsessing over me
lpchik2001: what do u remember me?
MattMrHat: ya, yer that fat girl
lpchik2001: what ??? i havent talked to u in what.... how long??
MattMrHat: I forget yer name
MattMrHat: I'll have my brother mock you or something
lpchik2001: fuck u i amk not fat
MattMrHat: Never fucking talk to me again you idiot.
MattMrHat: YA RIGHT HAHAHAHA
MattMrHat: Bye fat girl.
lpchik2001 signed off at 9:14:22 AM.
Thursday 18th October 2:13PM matt
What will you be for Halloween?
I want to be a strain of anthrax for Halloween! I normally hate Halloween. I don’t do anything; I don't go out egging houses or having weird super fun adventures like everyone else. I enjoy staying at home and doing whatever rubbish I normally do. This year, ironically, is a lot different than any other year. With the current and 'trendy' anthrax attacks, this Halloween is shaping up to be one big CNN special report waiting to happen.
In years past, parents, teachers and various other child safety advocates have drilled Halloween safety into the already bleeding minds of our adolescent youth. This year looks to be ever more exceedingly fun. Instead of teaching the children to be safe and bring their candy to the local hospital for X-ray scanning, they may also be giving away free anti-biotics. Try explaining to a little whinny 8 year old that they can’t go trick or treating because some fucker in some little country somewhere hates you because you simply exist. Followed by playing Shoots and Ladders! The fun never ends! IRONY!
Lots of fun questions arise from all of this, such as, what WOULD Jesus do? People wear those ridiculous bracelets, W.W.J.D, but, have you really ever thought about it? Well, Jesus, Afghani terrorists just killed 5000 of your ‘brothers’ and ‘sisters’, what do to do? Shooting the hostage is not an option (WITTY!). Do you say ‘Let’s all live in peace. Its ok for you to kill 5000 people, just please stop now?’ I pity people that think that way. Please take your passive aggressiveness elsewhere, and go pray or something.‘QUICK JESUS! STH!’
Of course the recent Anthrax scares have caught headlines and have seemed to gain a strangle hold on CNN and MSNBC. Anthrax is a moderately effective form of Bio Chemical-Warfare, yet, after it was done once in Florida, we were expecting more, thus, killing the element of surprise. The first person that did it was witty and clever. Every attack after that was simply lame and un-original. Any fucked up, brain-washed puppet Afghani can send a 34 cent letter anywhere in the US. ‘Mad props to you, prick’. I love how they keep showing us what stupid total complete fucking morons they truly are. WAY TO GO! YOU’VE KILLED ONE US CITIZEN WITH ANTHRAX AND WE’VE KILLED HUNDREDS OF YOUR PEOPLE AND CRIPPLED YOUR COUNTRY! GOOD GAME MOTHER FUCKERS!
Wednesday 17th October 11:27PM matt
Moving forward...
Well anyway, it seems that Microsoft isn't lying about their minimum system requirements for Windows XP. I found that out the painful way. Along with other reasons HOME NETWORKING SUCKS. Yes, Hub'ing 10 pc's together is fine, BUT DON'T ENABLE FILE SHARING. 10/100 base my fucking ass.
I have to do these 3 Ecology labs, one is measuring plants, one is measuring trees and one is measuring grasshoppers. Yet this somehow involves me having to go to the library. Go figure. I started to work on them a little, but I can't bring myself to work on the weekends. Everyday seems boring and plain anyway.
I'm sending the god-awful burners back to my friend Tom (finally); it's really a pain. I have no time as it is and now I have to fucking drive to the fucking FedEx store and fucking pay MORE fucking money to fucking ship him this shitty fucking burners back. In return he's sending me two 'RETAIL' Plextor burners, 16x of course. I guess that's cool. It's just really hard to find the time to mail the things back.
I was in a tiny car accident the other day. The fucking idiot rear-ended me. It's great though, I get to keep all the insurance money and pay off my credit cards. At the time of the accident I was about to hit the man that rear-ended me, but I guess I am very much better off now. FATE IS FUN!
Monday 15th October 9:37AM matt
Have you?
Have you ever thought why? Why you feel the way you do? Why you do the things you do? Why you fight to have the things that you think will make you happy? I really hate my life. I don't care whatever shit you have to say about me not having it bad, or blowing me off as an angry teenager. I'm not. I'm confused and hurt and angry. The problem, where do I start?
You take feelings for granted. You're happy when someone hugs you. You're angry when someone hurts you. You loathe yourself when you hurt inside. What happens if you don't feel or don't know what to feel? You say things and then the next moment you wonder if that's what you really mean in your heart, or if it's something someone else wants to hear. How do you judge things, by looks, by texture, by substance? What is important to you? I don't want to hear your pathetic self righteous shit about how you care about your grades or your car. I want you to tell me what really matters to you. You work so hard to put up your wall, to protect, to defend yourself from attack. Then you can't help but to have the wall consume you, until you don't know what's real and what's there to protect your fall. This is me. Go ahead and hate me, and be angry with me, and say you’ll never talk to me again. This is how I think, this is who I am, no lies, no misleading. This is me.
I hate you, I envy you, and I want to be you. Stop.
Saturday 13th October 1:53AM matt
Happy Day!
Welcome to the new MattKelly.com site! It looks the same you say? Well, no, I actually PHP0riZeD the news, only took like an hour. Not bad for my frst time installing a news script. I still have yet to set up the news archive. I'll prolly get at them tonight at 3 am, yanno cause I'm a loser and there is nothing else to do.
In any case, Elucid Systems is starting out quite well, we're about to get the site up and such. I printed out the 127 page PLESK (server admin) manual at school. I thought it was quite amusing.
I am also going to make a new verison of my supar 1337 homepage soon. Maybe like only banner the most visited pages and buttonize the rest, I dunno. I have to do a fucking JavaScript project now so...later.
Friday 12th October 10:08AM matt
IM BACK!
I'm alive! I fucking swear I am! Well we got the new server,so I'll be updating this normally again, (finally). Lots of stuff has happened, but none of which I care to mention. School is slowly but surely killing me. It really sucks to figure out half way through the year that you know nothing about C/C++. I think on Friday or Saturday, I'm going to kill myself and learn, or catch up on it. I'm going to be updating this page, I made a wicked cool start page last night cause I was bored.
I am in the middle of writing a COBOL program, and stuff, so I'll go. I'll update tomorrow with something much more worthwhile to say.
Friday 12th October 12:25AM matt
Test Fuck
Choices always were a problem for you. What you need is someone strong to guide you. Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow, what you need is someone strong to use you.. like me, like me. If you want to get your soul to heaven, trust in me .Don't judge or question.You are broken now, but faith can heal you. Just do everything I tell you to do. Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow. Let me lay my holy hand upon you. My Gods will becomes me. When he speaks out, he speaks through me. He has needs like I do. We both want to rape you. Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life. Open my eyes and blind me with your light and your lies.
Friday 12th October 12:10AM matt
